M.Adrianna (une_moineau) wrote in tofu_platter,

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FIC so sue me.

Title: Contradictory
Author: Maria-chan
Pairing: Atobe Keigo/ Fuji Syuusuke
Fandom: Tennis no Oujisama
Theme: #2 News;Letter
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Summary: The receiver may feel hurt, receiving news or an expired relationship… But there are two sides to every scenario, more than one point of view.

Dear Fuji—


Dearest Shuusuke,

Fuji-ku --

A series of angry black smears and blots covered the rest- or what would’ve been the rest of the letter, cutting off any form of coherency that was needed to get the point across.

How was he supposed to do this…? Even now, he still doubted his choice to break the news by letter. It was impersonal, and it seemed like cowardice, to not say it straight to Shuu-Fuji’s face, to see the reaction, to experience it firsthand.

It was the least he could suffer through as penance.

This was, after all, his fault entirely, and he knew, he knew all too well, how much pain he would cause.

Not that he wanted to, but—

Slamming the pen he held down onto the table, Atobe stood up and with a swipe, all the crushed paper balls, the pen, the soon-to-have-been discarded paper, and anything his hand caught, fell with a resounding clash onto the floor.

The sign pen rolled around, staining the study carpet with a black arch, before finally stopping against one of the books he had also thrown off the desk, staining the carpet with a large black blot, growing larger and larger, staining the book’s cover, staining any paper nearby…

Soon, any other paper ball nearby began to absorb the ink, turning dark-blue, and soft…

He could only look intently, grey eyes unwavering. Staring straight into, and past, the mess, his gaze glassed over, and his eyes saw something else, somewhere, sometime, other than the present.


There were no words, but two piercingly blue eyes stared right into his, questioning, definite, yet unsure. There was one clear question; no words were needed to express it. The air around them screamed the question, and a hundred other small ones pressed into them, running through their being, pushing to get out, to be laid bare, to be answered.

What was that about?

It wasn’t something either of them expected. They were simply resting after a tough workout. One moment, they were talking, the other…

It wasn’t as if he had been in control, neither had he been the one to initiate the kiss. But… nor was it Fuji who did. 50% of the way, he had taken, the other 50%, Fuji did. And in the next moment, their lips were pressed together. Just that small action, simple and dry. Just…

A kiss.

If it could be called that… though he would’ve described it as pressing of lips together. The way Gakuto and Oshitari, and the people in the movies did it was way different, involving much more, but substantially

Atobe wasn’t some romantic, neither was he a poet, but at that period of time, he could feel the sudden wanting to be closer, to be nearer, to know Fuji better than he did. There was no ‘jolt of electricity’, neither was there ‘liquid fire spreading through his veins’, but there was an infinite sense of calmness, as if he was as close to complete he could ever get- not that Fuji was ‘a part of him’, it was simply… as if something, an empty space in front of him had been filled up.

Fuji would understand.

Fuji was right in front of him.

Fuji would not go away…

And all of this was proved true and definite by the simple feeling of their lips pressed together.

Atobe smiled ruefully, and turned away from the mess he made- someone would see, someone would clean it up- and walked out of the room, and rang for the chauffeur. A letter… wouldn’t suffice.

No amount of black ink, an impersonal piece of paper, or carefully penned words, no matter how true, could replace the version of someone saying it, all truthfully.

“Shuusuke! Shuusuke!”

“Hai, neechan?”

“There’s someone at the door for you!”

Atobe watched, as Fuji, smiling as always, opened his eyes and regarded Atobe with a mix of apprehension and a bit of something else he couldn’t place.

“I’ll just grab my coat- Atobe-kun, let’s go for a walk, shall we?”


A/N: Done. My Biology notes aren’t. T^T

Tags: 30 kisses
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Bah. Forget that Biology notes. Scratch that Owari. You hafta finish this first, and I'll chain you to the computer if I have to! XDD

You're back, dear! Do you know that the lack of AtoFuji fics had almost done me in? Thank god for those folks at Diva Cacti!

*Huggles Maria-chan* Sankyuusankyuu! Thanks for writing this little snapshot on Atobe's struggle to find the words, the appropriate way, the right thing to do. Now my curiosity is piqued! What is it the Atobe is trying to say? I may be able to guess, but I'll let you answer it for me.

XP I wanted to continue... But seeing as that would mean writing probably... at least two pages more, I let it go. -_- And don't worry, I've chained myself to the computer already... just that it's too long, and I get pushed aside anyway. Heh.

Yes!! I've seen the AtoFuji fics there, adn I want to read them sososososo badly, but... but... *iron will* *iron will* *iron will* I just finished those notes, but I have a test coming up-!!

You can guess~ You know you can. It's probably correct, btu I won't say anything. I'll probably do something to wrap this section up sometime soon, and to kill two birds with one stone, I'll write it with a theme. XDD

At this rate, It'll be two-three months and I'm done with my themes, and you can pick it up. XDD FEEL THE OBLIGATION!!!

The themes? 30_kisses? Two or three months?! That's it? After that you're done with AtoFuji?!

*is horrified*

No, no, no. Please tell me you're still gonna write AtoFuji...

Obligation, pfft. Not if I can help it. *prepares chains and duct tapes* You better start running now... ^0^
*hides* Yes, next next (next?) week, we'll be in for the month long holiday~<3 ~and I can finish all the themes up? *.*

I won't be done with Tofu!! Never!! But I'd like to see someone else writing, too~<3 And I want to claim a pairing like Fuji/Yaukimura. ♥

o.0 *changes hiding place*
Waaa that's soooo cute ^_______^ AtoFuji is very hard to find and rare so this was definitely a treat :D

Thank you very much!! ^___^

Yes, AtoFuji is hard to find ;.; But the people at diva_cacti are lifesavers when it comes to that. ^.~ They write well too...

*nudgenudge* XD

I'm glad to have made someone happy today! =)

Wai~! Wai~! Another ToFu from you! Too bad the biology notes aren't finished yet. Hehehe...

Loved the way Atobe hesitated and remembered that kiss. It was too Atobe. And Fuji was just so~ Fuji with that reaction.

Funny thing. We updated on the same day, an hour apart. Plus, we used the same kiss - #2. ^^;;

Miss you and good luck with your biology notes! ^^ *waves banners* You can do it!

-_- And there I was, toying around with my new Yahoo!Messenger. My mom finally allowed em to get it, adn she's hooked on it... and has been chatting for the hours you were online. ><

(New name is "gackt_maria2000")

I finished two chapters already, anyway!! ^____^ *is hell proud* One chapter can be summarised, at the most saturated notes... in 6 PAGES. *shoots publisher* The book is NOT organized at all. ><

I need to finish two more chapters!! *ties headband* I WILL DO THIS!!! *iron will* *iron will* *iron will* *iron will*

nice ^^ After a 48 hours torture of not being able to use the PC I am so glad that I found this fic in time ^^
48 hours!! I congratulate you- 48 hours without internet for me is... horrifying, to say the least. My record has been... two weeks only. ;.;

*is addicted* XDDD

Thanks very much for reading, I really appreciate you leaving a comment~<3